Monday, January 29, 2007

♥what a wonderful monday♥

My Gawd. Andito uli ako sa cybermed. Panu ang aga ko pumasok, mga 6:40 ata and2 na ako sa skul..pagakyat ko sa 5th flr, walang tao dun sa rum. Nagtaka na ako. Tapos biglang dumating si drew..sabi nia wala daw klase sa PHC...

sabi na nga eh

for the nth time, hindi na naman ako na-inform.

tsktsktsktsk.

Pero kagabi sabi ng mama ko may tumatawag daw sa akin sa phone. Eh kaso walan naman ako sa bahay kagabi. Cguro c jake un. Ok na din, atleast may nagbalak pa din na iinform (sana)ako. pero ang bottomline pdin ay hindi ko pa rin nalaman na wala pla klase. Ho hum.

Pero ininsert ko din nmn ung sim ko kagabi sun sa fone ni papa. wala naman akong natanggap na sms. ewan. ganun uli, wala na silang pake sakin.

buti na lng may cybermed.

hehe..

ang saya naman. excited pa naman ako pumasok tas wala naman plang klase...maya pang 10:00 ung next class.

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I have my new layout for this month. Dapat sana eh ibabagay ko ung skin since this February is valentine month. Mukha wala naman bahid ng valentine except for the heart na nakalagay sa header...tapos ung theme pala ng header eh mejo shattered eklat..broken pa naman ako ngaun (talaga lng)..gusto ko sana palitan ng pink na font color para mas valentine ung dating..kaso la na ako oras para palitan ung color..next time na lng cguro..hehehe...

un lng

Labels: iSchool-buCool, wasted

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 9:38 AM

Friday, January 12, 2007

♥ironic about "thank God its friday"♥

What's ironic about??

Everytime I woke up in the morning of Friday, i have a feeling of laziness; my body feel tired to get up in bed and I'm wishing to go back to sleep. That's my routine every friday since this second semester had started. Haaaaayz...

Why is that so??? Actually, my laziness begins at wednesday and it goes on 'til friday. Knowing that we had our major subjects at Monday and Tuesday, so after that, i feel bored. OUr wednesday schedule wasn't bad at all, only from 7:00am to 10:00am because its our Logic subject (our prof their is oh so boooring, he even talked to the board, at the window and even to the floor). But in Science and technology, it wasnt boring. Then the feeling of boredom goes on and on...we don't even have our classes every thursday.

And then friday came. Gahd. here comes Phil. Lit and PE. A very boring day for the week. I did'nt know why i have this mood...i think its because of our oldie Prof in Phil LIt. She's an old coot. Arrgh..she make our lives completely miserable. She get tantrums. I didnt understand what she is saying. She even teaches us not the Phil. Literature but the whole Literature instead. Isnt that nice?? Our subject is about Phil. Literature but she tackles about Edgar Allan Poe, Anton Chekov etc..haaaayz...i really hate her. Promise.

At PE, i can say its boring everytime we have our lecture. But whenever we have our physical activities, it makes my body alive.

Gee. That's why i hate friday.

A while ago, she (Phil Lit Prof) gave us our prelim exam. Good thing i got 2.25. We got embarassed at her coz she gave low points on our essays. Anyway, we had our lesson then. And as i am saying, we get bored. I just opened my book and daydreamed instead. I used not to catch a glimpse of her face. Naalibadbaran ako pag nakikita ko mukha nia.Boo.

Then we tackled about We Filipinos are Mild Drinkers by Alejandro Roces. She said that, that the story was kind of humorous and shows exaggeration. Kuya Echo, seated at my back then reacted and laughs sarcasticly. Ha-ha-ha. He did that just to make our prof annoyed. HAhahaha...then i started to imitate kuya, and others did it so. Hahahaha again. Since our prof lacks of her sense of hearing, she did'nt reacted with what weve done. But she only got annoyed when he asked my kuya echo what is chasers?? Kuya echo answered "ma'am un ba ung hinahabol?" *evil grin* ...haha. The prof only said that "i'm asking you seriously"..but the class continued to laugh.

Until she dismissed us, still, me and kuya echo laughs sarcasticly. Ha-ha-ha

At PE time, we had our lecture. I did'nt listened to our prof attentively. I even seated at the back corner, having my ears plugged with earphones. Thank you to Rap, my seatmate, who let me borrow his iPod Nano. But actually, i get a chance to participate at the class discussion. I even remembered the year when the basketball was invented.(hehe)...I just participated once in a while, so that my prof would not scold me for not listening to his discussion. hehe again.

haaayz...if only our Lit prof didnt record an attendance for her class, i would rather be absent, take an hours of sleep instead. My day is ruined everytime i go inside the room 209. Friday really sucks.

boom.

Labels: iSchool-buCool, random thoughts, wasted

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 3:36 PM

Sunday, December 24, 2006

♥malamig na pasko♥

almost one week din ako nawala. Sorry poh. Nalimutan ko na iupdate tong blog ko. Madami na din nangyari dis past few weeks. Dance rehearsals, simbang gabi, puyatan sa txt kc nangangarir (oo marunong na ako mangarir ngaun), and many more..

isa isahin ko mga nangyari.

Nabanggit ko sa last post ko ang aking kapatid na si danny. Lam nio ba pag-uwi ko sa bahay may natanggap ako na txt msg na nagsabi 'hi tol!'...xempre tinanong ko kung cno xa. ayaw magpakilala. hulaan ko daw. eh sa way n magtxt kilala ko na. ayaw talaga umamin. sabi ko pa nga 'ganyan ka, magpaparamdam kung kelan malapit na mgbday!!'..aun, nabuko...cnabi ko na kung ayaw mo magpakilala wag na xa mgtxt...ahaaay...ang tagal ng proseso bago kami nagkausap. Ang galeng. Nabanggit ko lng xa sa friendster tpos mya2 ktxt ko na.Nung dee 19 ung bday nia. I'm not sure if ako ung unang bumati s knya...na-mizz ko xa sobra. tpos nung thursday ata ng madaling araw, abt 2am ata un, bigla xa nagising. buti at gising pa ako nun. aun. ktxt ko xa til 5am. lupet ko noh kaya sabog na ako eh walang tulog. he even called me for a minute lng. ang saya ng txt namin kc dinate nia ako through txt. ang saya. bsta...

Our dance rehearsals for our christmas event is sobrang toxic. waaaah. kapagod talaga. worth it naman kc successful naman ung ginawa namin. I think naglorify naman c lord sa ginawa namin. Kaya e2 ngaun masakit pa buong katawan. antok pa din. pero try ko na makapagpost b4 christmas day.

Got to meet again with the torogi's (Oinkeey Jr, Jov_adbot, kapatid na danny, apol, and kuya dudes gwapo..hehehe). Niraid ko ung bagong cp ni danny..haha...tpos c adbot aun! adbot pdin. Binigyan ko xa ng pic ko tpos nagrequest pa na 'lagyan mo dedication ah'..haha ambisyoso!! weee...nakatanggap din me ng gift galing sa aking kapatid...tenkyu puh ah!!

( this following paragraphs would be soooo very emo...babala lng)

after i got home from our service, i went to bed and cried to sleep. Sh*t. Ayaw ko na. bakit kaya ganito?? Bakit ba ako nasasaktan ngaun??? Is it i loved him already??? Pero hindi pwede. KUYA lng ang turing ko sa kanya.

This is the first christmas na malungkot ako ng sobra.

Hindi ko matukoy ung nararamdaman ko. Nung nalaman ko ung balita tungkol sa kanila ni ano, parang no comment lng ako. Sinabihan ko pa nga xa na "kaw ha may tinatago ka sa akin, pero auz lng, i respect ur privacy naman eh"...pero nung pag-uwi ko sa bahay, bigla na lng ako humagulgol sa iyak. Pangalawang beses pa alng ako umiyak ng ganito. Una sa taong ewan, look for June 16 post...tpos ngaun sa kanya naman??? ewan ko. sinasabi ko naman sa sarili ko na, KUYA lng ang turing ko sa kanya pero bakit naman ako ganito kung masaktan. As in masakit talaga. Bakit??? MAHAL KO NA BA SIYA??? hindi ko ala...hindi ko alam....

KUYA LNG KITA OK???pero mahal kita

Pero sa totoo lng, ako tlga ang nasasaktan para sa kanya. Bakit. Kc tinwo-two-time xa ng babae. Lintek. Kilala ko din kc ung babae. At pagkakaalam ko hindi pa cla nagmemeet. sa txt p lng. Naawa naman ako sa ex-bf ng babae kc minahal nia ung girl tpos mangangaliwa xa!! tpos ung kapatid ko pa ung involved. I pity him. and i pity also the gurl. I pity them all including myself.

Pangalawang beses na ako nabigo dahil sa lintek na love na yan. Buti at hindi ko nagiging bf ang mga yan kundi baka lalo lng ako masktan. atliz sa una pa lng nakikilala ko n cla. pero masakit parin tlg. minahal ko eh. Buti na lng hindi pa ako xobrang na-fall sa kanila kundi baka sobrang masktan lng ako. Kaso there is something common with the two of them. Parehas cla ng nickname. coincidence??

kaya napapaisip ako. mas masarap talaga maging single. Ayaw ko na maghanap ng bf. ayaw ko muna. Mark my word. Lagi na lng ako nasasaktan. Ayaw ko na. Hindi ko na rin iisipin ung taong tinutukoy ko dito sa post na to: http://toph29.blogspot.com/2006/11/my-dream-as-requested-by-billycoy.html Hindi talaga ako swerte sa love. Palagay ko mag-mamadre na lng ako. o kya focus na lng sa studies...

kanina din nalaman ko na meron na din gf ung unang guy prospect ko..pero hindi naman na ako nasaktan dun kc diba na-let go ko na xa. kaya no hurt feelings na ako.

tamang-tama. malapit na ako magbattery exam. yan na lng ang pagtutuunan ko ng pansin.

kanina nga bago kmi umuwi, nagpahilot ako ng ulo kay kuya elmer. Tapos cnabi nia sa akin na "cguro madalas ka magisip noh? naipon kc dito lahat ng stress mo, wag ka kc maxado magiicip kaya madala sumakit ulo mo eh".

ang galing nia. nalaman nia un. oo tama, madalas ako magicip,.tapos nalaman ko ung balita..aray. akala ko di na ako magiisip-isip muna kaso eto ngaun yan naman ang laman ng isip ko. taena..ayaw ko na nga db???

pasalamat parin ako at kahit papaano ay anjan ang mga friends na nagmamahal sa akin. pero hindi ko maatim na iOpen itong lahat sa kanila. swerte na lng sa makakabasa.

Sa lahat ng ouch at aray, mahal pa rin kita. salamat. pero ayaw ko na. nakakaubos ng lakas. nakaka-drain ng energy...pero salamat. paalam.

Ayaw ko na magmahal.

HEARTBREAK SONG
by Kim Chiu

Bakit kaya ganito aking nadarama
Nasasaktan ng ‘di naman nalalaman
Kung meron man akong hiling sa puso kong ito
Hindi sana… hindi sa tulad mo

Chorus:
Gulong gulo ang isip ko
Sa puso kong ito
Hindi alam kung bakit ba
Ikaw ang minahal
Kung kaya ko lang sanang pigilan
Ang aking pusong
Piliin ka
Upang ibigin ko

Pag-ibig ba ay sadyang ‘di maintindihan
Puso’t isipan ay ‘di rin magkasunduan
Kung kaya kong limutin ka
Ginawa ko na
Ano bang meron ka’t mahal kita

Repeat chorus

plugs to :
Adrian,Jennifer,Yvet,Kuya Rex,Paurong,Lovely,

nga pala, baka hindi ko mabisita lahat ng mga blogs,...sa mga makakabasa, have urself a merry christmas and a prosperous new year!!! bless God first and God will bless you!!!

Labels: birthday, emo mode, events, friends, love, txt, wasted

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 6:25 PM