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Thursday, October 27, 2005



♥very confused♥

still..im confused. on what happened last night..err..or should i say last midnight. why is this happening to me? Again and again. Damn. Is it because of "him"?? oh cmon...i think i'm going crazy...crazy over him??gah. T_T


ok..i'll gonna share to you about what happened. Last night, i borrowed my brother's mobile phone-and inserted my own sim card (since i don't have any cellphone yet). Then, i went to the nearest loading store and i bought an e-load worth 30php. satisfied. then i went to my bed and used the phone. AT first, i tried to register to Smart 258 for unlimited text but holy crap!! 258 replied that their registration has a time frame. One can register from maybe 9:00am to 2:00pm (not sure) and 11:00pm to 5:ooam...gah...i checked the time, time was about 10:15pm so i waited for about 45 minutes.........after that span of time, i registered quickly but nothing happens.."message sending failed"..but with patience, i registered. so i smiled because registerng to 258 was really hard...

ok...so i have this unlimited text already...i texted my friends who are smart subscribers...but hell yeah...almost all of them are already in their beds sleeping quietly with their pillows on their heads. but there's two persons who are still awake...it's jena, my ffriend..and HIM..oh noh!!! so me and jena texted for about an hour.

and him??he even mis-called me. so i asked him if he is also registered to 258. And he answered yes. So, i became excited with his answer..i even told him that he must stay awake till morning(hehe exage) coz i'm gonna text him to death.

so we texted...texted...texted...time check: 1:30am....texted...and sarap talaga pagnaka-unlimited...weeeee.......

so that's what we did...we ended up texting and saying our gudbyes at about 3:00am..hehe addik

WHAT MADE ME CONFUSED?????

what made me confused is about our bonding time through text. He even said that he already missed our "bonding time" because it's been a long time since we talked one-on-one..hmm..for almost one-year gap i think. Our conversation between the two of us really made me CONFUSED.

at first, our conversation was so plain and ordinary. I asked him to open up a topic but he returned it back to me and said that i myself must the one who will open up. ok fine...so being a bored creature at that time...i thinked and thinked what topic will i open up to. so i asked a question but or conversation turned out to be nonsense.

oh before i forget..he texted me this message: "if you were given a chance to choose what kind of person will i ever be to you? a.gf/bf b.bestfriend c. angel d. soulmate and e. enemy...reply your answer, i'll wait.."

so i replied this message: " i dont know eh!"
cguro e. enemy kc dba kaaway kita..blah blah...

then he texted again he replied. he said that i'm bad..hahaha..yeah it's true!! im bad to him..hehe*evil grin*

so after an hour, since we don't have any topic to talked about to, i send him back the same msg. then here's how our conversation runs..

him: b. bestfriend kc gusto ko malaman kung paano magmahal, mag-aruga at mag-asikaso ang isang irish...gf pwede na rin joke!(aba may joke pa)
me: wish ko lng
*ang tagal nia magreply...nalobat xe eh*
me: gusto malaman kung paano ako mag-nahal, magaruga at mag-asikaso?malalaman natin yan pag NURSE na ako hehe Ü
him: malamang! iba naman ung pag-alaga sa pasyente at sa di-pasyente diba?
me:biro lng un
me: bilang bestfriend? tanong mo kay buddy jc kung kmusta me bilang besty.
me: mukha ba kming mag-bestfriend?
him: hinde..parang ordinaryo lng
me: w8, may tanong ako, nakikita mo ba sakin na inaalagan at inaasikaso ko si jc?o hinde
him: hinde eh, senxa na ha
me: bkit ano ba ang ginagawa ng mag-bestfriend?
him: hindi ko alam eh kc wala pa akong naging bestfriend pero kung ako un aasikasuhin ko siya noh
me: ok fine
me: talagang di mo un makikita kc hindi ako showy. tska alam mo nmn hindi ko maxado pinakikita ung care ko kay jc kc baka bigyan nila ng malice
him: dpeende nmn un kung paano mo ipinapakita
me: pero ako bilang gf? gusto mo matry? i warn u? kakawawain lng kita
me: ok let's get serious
me: as gf? ewan ko lng..hindi ko pa natatry eh...tska la pa sa isip ko un kc musmos pa ako...cguro pag nag-18 na ako or pag-graduate ko
him: aba..nakakagulat ka nmn!!ngaun lng kita nakausap ng matino..wow!!
me: ganun?hindi pla me matino kausap...well iba na ako ngaun matino na ako kausap ngaun pag matino din ung kausap ko...
me: pero cguro kung magkakaroon ako ng bf, hmm..bahala na..but remember dis: i'll give him TRUST not only love and affection
him: talaga..wow ang swerte nmn niya sana ako na lng un joke
me: puro k nmn joke..baligtad na yata ang mundo ah dati ako ang puro joke ngaun ikaw na..
him: cge na tulog na ako mejo pagod ako eh
me: cge na tulog ka na bka magkasakit ka niyan alam mo nmn kailangan magmpanan mo ang pagiing mambobote mo hehe
me: next time na lng uli sana maulit to..na miss ko na nga ung paguusap natin eh
him: ako din..cge sure bsta may unlimited pa
me:tulog ka na
him: cge gudnyt godbless
me:hindi na gudnyt..gud morning na
me: slip tyt..



hay..im so confused about our conversation...does he really mean those texts to me?? i hate him...nakakainis siya talaga..ano ba talaga ang nasa isip niya??naguguluhan na ako??.

i'm falling for him na sana di na lng xa nagtext ng ganun


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