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Monday, October 24, 2005



♥what hurts???♥
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"There are some people who meet that
somebody
that they can never stop
loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn't
expect
you to understand that, or even believe it, but
trust
me, there are some love that don't go away.
And
maybe that makes them crazy, but we should
all be
lucky to end up with that somebody who has a
little of
that insanity. Somebody who never lets go.
Somebody who cherishes you forever."

What hurts...

:: letting go of a person u've just learned to
love

:: reminiscing the good times u shared
together

:: shielding ur heart to love somebody

:: trying to hide what u really feel

:: trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall
from ur
eyes

:: loving a person too much

:: giving up someone u never thought of giving
up

:: having the right love at the wrong time

:: taking the risk to fall in love again

:: hiding ur relationship from someone else

:: controlling ur feelings to avoid hurting a
friend

:: thinking of her/him every waking and sleeping
moment
knowing all the while that she/hr never even
thinks a
single thought of you...

:: letting go, because everytime you see the
person,
you only fall deeper

:: holding back only to find out when it's too
late, you
both felt the
same way, but were only scared to lose each
other
so much that you didn't let the feelings out

:: falling inlove with someone you didnt mean
to fall
inlove with

:: finding the perfect guy...with only one prob...
he
doesnt love you...

:: helping the one you love court your friend

:: seeing the one you love crying for someone
else

:: the waiting also hurts like hell

:: having to hear "... I've met someone"

:: agreeing to him wish to 'just be friends'.

:: asking his freedom back bcoz ' he'd be
happier
with her'

:: asking u to 'forget that everything
happened' and
be 'normal' friends again.

:: hearing that u're treated as a lil sis (ouch!)

:: sharing his future plans for the girl with you.

:: u stopped being friends bcoz his gf asked
him to.

:: being denied in front of people.

:: telling u lies where he'd been when
actually, he
was with a 'new
friend' or an 'old flame' (whew!)

:: he told u he'd be leaving u to return to his
ex (d
one he left 4 u!)

:: breaking someone's heart

:: fighting for that one thing that would make
you
happy

:: that is, holding on to a person who can not
guarantee you her/his
commitment unless he fix himself...then, you
are
left hanging
for the moment...then he says, time will tell...
but
you still decided to hope in him and trust him

:: PRETENDING you're OK when inside you're
dying...

:: PRETENDING to be strong.... and
RECOGNIZING
your weakness

:: lying in bed each night, thinking of that
special
person you can never have...
:: being with someone you can't actually love...

:: pretending you don't love a person whom
you
actually love...

:: being in love...

:: letting go even if you really don't want to...
having
no right to say you are hurting because it was
your
decision

:: seeing the person you love hurt because of
you...
and not being able to help that person...

:: having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the
person you love and finding out afterwards
that things
will never be the same again when he/she
doesnt
treat you with the same closeness as before

:: having to face the fact that someone is
capable of
completely
destroying the wall that you have set for
yourself,
leaving you weak and vulnerable

:: admitting that you love someove despite her/his
imperfections

:: finding out that the more you try to hate her/him,
the
more you end up
loving him/her, perhaps even more than before

:: realizing how stupid your mistakes were that
led to
your break-up.

grrr....

lahat ng naka-bold ay related skin..

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letting HIM go is very hard and it hurts because i have proved that i really LOVE him already. Reminiscing the good times together really hurts me. Titignan ko lng ung isang picture na kasama xa..nasasaktan ako. Kc nung dati, ang close-close nmin, masaya kmi, nakakausap ko pa xa sa phone ng matagal. Tapos ngaun? parang wala lng. Minsan nga hindi ko na xa kinikibo eh. Trying to hide my feelings for him??napakahirap talaga. Mahirap kc sabihin sa kanya eh, bkit ano ba malay ko?my feelings rin ba xa skin??damn. thinking of her/him every waking and sleeping moment knowing all the while that she/he never even thinks a single thought of you...kainis kaya un. ewan ko ba parati ko na xa iniisip. kahit anong gawin ko hindi na xa maalis sa isip ko...i guess i'm just a fool for thinking that he think of me too...nyah..whattever. falling inlove with someone you didnt mean to fall inlove with-waah..ang sakit din nun...hindi ko nmn kc sinasadya na ma-inluv ako sa kanya eh..damn. bkit kaya? cguro para sa akin siya na ang perfect guy for me. Pero...hindi nmn niya ata ako mahal. Ah ewan. I'll just wait. But waiting also hurts like hell. damn. Minsan nmn pag lalapit siya, tatanungin ako kung ok lng ako, xempre ako parang ewan, sasabihin ko na oo ok lng ako but deep inside i'm dying..and its because of him. waahh..sometimes i pretend that i don't love him but it's the other way around. Naalala ko tuloy ung sinabi niya sakin dati nung nagkatabi kmi sabi niya:"pinaglalapit tayo ah" sabi ko..duhh..aun nasaktan yata siya..i'm not sure with him nga hindi ko talaga alam kung mhal ba niya talaga ako or what. pagnagtext na xa, natutunaw ako kahit sa tagal-tagal ng panahon na katext ko xa, tatlong msg p lng ang naibigay niya na nakaka-lovestruck talaga. tapos ung letter nia skin..ung mga moves niya dati..ah ewan..kala ko meron xang feelings skin..swak na sana kmi..kaso malaman-laman ko may nililigawan na pla xa..damn..go away..better to let him go

kaya aun..hanap ako ng ibang prospect..c _________.
kaso, walang kwenta. sayang..buti na lng hindi pa ako maxado na-fall sa kanya kc siya na rin nagsabi na "friends" kmi and he treated me as a lil sis..ouch..

ngaun??wala pa nmn maxado..siya pa rin (the one i pointed out first)pero i want to forget him..waaahh...c ano na lng..pwede kaya..

gee..

seeesh


* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 2:33 PM

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